I am writing you this letter to explain my past and forthcoming actions towards you.
There are moments in your life that give you so much insight into your own person that the result is often shocking, but sometimes it is exactly what you expected. Often these moments happen towards other people as well, where you are presented with a glimpse of who someone else is, and you can see it better than that person themselves.
I gave you everything I could give you for as long as I could, but the point has come where I can no longer ignore my self and what it knows. I have to know remove my self completely from you, because I am left with little choice. I fear that I don't cut you out of my life now, while I still have some of my self left, then I will fall and shatter like I have before. I have learned my lesson from before and I can plainly see where this is headed, and it is not good for either of us. I know that you are just using me because you want to feel like someone still cares about you, and you want sympathy. I can no longer give that to you because of your lack of reciprocation, lack of commitment, communication, and because you are using me until you find something (someone) else. As you walk down that path, it is becoming abundantly clear to me that I can not follow.
My wish for you is that you find your self. I wish that you become exactly the person who you would like to become, and nothing less. I wish for you that you will one day get the ability to see this situation as I saw it and that it changes you. I hope that you embrace adversity and grow from it, rather than hide from it or worse, let it destroy you. I have every once of faith that you will be fine, but its going to be a long road that you are not near the end of. I pray that as you reach the end of that path you find peace and that something or someone is waiting for you, but it will not be me.
As for me, I'll be just fine. I leave this knowing that I gave you everything I could. I know that I could have done no more, and that comforts me. I will now just live my life, as I did before you, having learned a little bit more about my self and about life. I do thank you for that, as well as the good times we had. You do still mean a lot to me, and I will never stop caring about you. You will never know. So I guess that's it. Ill return you belongings to you as soon and as discreetly as I can. I wish you the best, always. Good luck.
Evan
